FULL STOP....

*Cries*

Sometimes I asked myself why am I born to be such a potential failure... Well nothing goes smooths for me all the while... It does not matter much too.

Sometimes I asked myself why I care for u, Why I concern for you. Its because all of you are my friends. Friends are one of the most important assets in us. Without friends, I think I suppose wont be standing right here.

Well agree that we do not always get what we wanted... the last time i get what I wanted was 1yr ago.. I wished for a tablet for myself and I gt it... Till now i have not get what i wanted yet. I hope the 2nd time will come.

Found it fate to know that u are actually the person my mum has been telling me all these times. U are a niece of my mum's sec sch classmate. Dint get to know u in Sch but well finally meet u on that very sunday xD. Even ur mum knows me ... Lols. Even b4 you are born, My mum already know ur mum and dad. What a coincidence?

Well Friends are made not only by friends itself ... also from ppl around you xD.

Fate/Destiny Lies In-Between our Hands. We have to hold onto it b4 its too late.


So therefore I have to persever through these hard times I am facing. Regardless of what, I am gg to succeed.

Well I dont expect myself to Succeed in Nursing but there's somethings I would want to challenge myself....

1) I will continue Nursing for the sake of having a Diploma and the skills learnt. It will sure benefit me when I am suppose to take care of anyone who is around me.

2) I will study Architecture after I am out of NS. Its my passion of being 1 cause i want to design for ppl and myself . It will be a great accomplishment when I am able to succed 1 day. Architecture FTW.

3) I will be helping out a very succesful lady who was my Mum's sec sch friend. She's someone I really want to learn from. Despite using 8yrs to repay her late Husband's Debt of $40k she took 8yrs working for BWL to repay it. Till now she is earning 40-50k per mth. I want to learn from her and work hard for this ... I know I will. Thats Y theres a saying " When There's a Will, There's always a way."

4) Being an Architect sure want to have a Girl who is also somehow a designer beside and being there for him. So I would want my GirlFriend to be a designer... Well only 2 ppl know who am i saying about.


To Des: Well I trust what u said to me xD... Hope its true..
To Eugene: Same to u 2 xD...


Alrights continue tmr ... Nites

Phew... Tdy was great day cause 9am till 2pm well actually should be 1 pm but Abnormal Psychology came in for make up.. well the teachers teaching us this Sem is really Interesting and entertaining xD.

After that headed home and off for lunch with Eugene darn 5hrs of sch marathon W/o food and finally xD.. Hahas. Meet up with Jon Khoo for awhile and off home ... Raining n Raining this few days darn hahas... xD Stop raining pls.. xD.

Update Ltr......

Cant sleep for so many days... Its bugging me lyk so ...

I used to be seeing u as a friend, Then to love u cause of the personality in u...
I admit ur personality is gd at times... but nvr will I knw that its not ur real personality
U have shown ur true colours...
Whenever u r down I used to be there to care for u, concern for u. Not because I like u nor love u..
As a friend I do that... cause seeing u so happy with the other half is what i wanted to see...
but nvr expect sth to happen ...
We still chatted regardless of anything but Just after a small invitation from me, ur attitude changes totally... dont say I am thinking too much cause its real. I Apologised alot of times for what
I have said... but to no avail. In my eyes, I always thought u arnt those petty kind but to me now u are. I dont wish to say all these but to let u knw how I feel.

Since till now theres no communication which is the first time ... It seems lyk we have ended this Friendship already am i rite? Well I always respect u ... unless u come up to me and explain. If not theres nth else i wanted to say =D

I just need time alone for myself... too much blow for me.

Do not come and irritate me..

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Fri...

Went to sch with only 2hrs of sleep cause class start at 8am... well ended @ 12pm...
So after sch, went kovan with Edmund and off home myself. Walked halfway saw Mr Chia, mdm Tan lin and another teacher... So greated them.

Went home and change after that headed down to Hougang Swimming pool for swim.. after that walked home with Kia and off to the Airport to meet Desmond and Ian. Went for dinner tgt and walked ard the Airport.

While walking towards the end of Terminal 1, we saw the Singapore Team for Gymnastics... Hahas. Cool. The Twins was there... representing the country. Hmm wondering where r they heading to hahas.. Well all the best to them.

Off to Terminal 3 and eat P.C Hahas... Hmm nice den off to welcome Desmond's Grandma back to SG ... and Home sweet home... With a supprise lOLS!!!! Ok nvm Well... Nth much to say Hhaa

Alrights I am doing too much Thinking !!!!!


Within these Years we never quarreled and there are no bad omen between us. We remained as so close friends... despite the Brave act I did so long ago. There no reason towards the rejection. ........................ 1yr plus passed.... INTO POLY WOOOOO.... NURSING ... Although I hate this course but I learnt alot... Results not gd but still I Endure...!!!!

After sharing my experience with YiFang n Anqi, they gave me the same thinking of what they think abt it....

"The person gives me the feeling like you are suppose to be there, it's as though when He/She needed something, He/she will come to you. but when He/she doesn't, He/she will throw you aside."

Was really shocked they said the same thing I dont wish it to be true.... Or U r out of my List!!!!

Maybe what I said is nth to u anymore... Maybe u have forgorten what u said 2 yrs ago... on my belated bday Letter!!!


Alrights nth much to say le... Gonna sleep and enjoy tmr 8am till 1pm ... den Relaxing hrs...!!!

I Guess I wont be seeing u anymore... cause in ur mind rite now, U must have hate me To the max. And U nvr knw its the vry first time ...

I tried my best... Since its a decision well... I have nth to say.

Well I am too sleepy Nites

Bought my Lecture Notes Lyk finally Haha... Well Tdy is the worst day alive. I am glad i can walk out alive... 8am till 6pm marathon of classes... Well done!!!

Tmr gonna be better cause I start 9am end 11am ... off to Tp maybe to find friend... Well b4 that configure of lappy!!!!

Hais... Nth much Gd nites peepss

Alrights post this and I am off to bed.. Haha. Wahahahaa....

Hmm tdy nth much first lesson was Lab and after that Brk... well till 1pm and Tutorial... After that Lecture all the way... till 4pm. So Boring.

Well ... Saw GuoLun the first person I reach sch and then Desmond... after that my cousin and classmates...

AFter sch while waiting for Heede, saw Wong Zhi Quan haha.. he so excited to tell me his experience in sch .. wahahaha cool. He so happy. After that Heede, JonKhoo and Zhiquan we took mrt to RP and meet Neelam n Kelvin. Suppose to have soccer but raining omg so used Com till 6plus den have dinner and I rushed off... For someone I knw de bday lols don knw how explain... Haha

Well gg off to sleep for tmr 8am till 6pm marathon/......

Alrights ltr @ 10am will mark my first lesson ... Lab sia. Hmmm actually its 8am but the first Bio Lab is E learning haha.. cool. Well I dont really look forward but since its sch still have to go... I wish to see those I want to see but nt those who I dont wish to see... Seriously I have a gd class.. xD...

FTW 0914.... 2more yrs to go... Must Keng!!!!

Sunday ... Went over to PP with desmond to buy Sch reopen items... He bought a note book plus pen... I bought a 25pc DVD-R, Notebook, Pen and a pencil... Wooo.. Rdy for sch... The DVD-R only Jiayi knw Y i bought that lols!!!.... SAve her!!!

Hmm so nth much already End of Holidays ... Promises are broken and PLans are gone... Hais. If u fail to plan, u plan to fail.... but for me its I plan to succeed but U make it fail... Thx. xD ... Appreciated...

Off to sleep... Cya yr 1 students...

Once a promise have been broken,

It leaves a scar behind the person who has the promised kept by someone who place it on them.

Just because of 1 matter n the total trust was lost.

I know u for long n this is ur attitude towards this matter...

I have seen it finally the other side...

I have nth to say...

U want another word frm me in ur Phone, Msn or Msg, Non will be gg there... cause I find no point giving myself 1 msg 1 dissapointment. Its nvr lyk this b4 until 1 mth back. Thank You vry much for being such a good friend... all these years... Since no point talking so let it be. I will always go by ur decision...

My Efforts are never onced appreciated by u I suppose? Or am I wrong? My efforts are used inbetween Exams n Studies... It takes Time and Effort to plan. I m nt a Vry Gd Planner but I tried... last 4 weeks of Holidays arent Even Holidays to me!!! Puiiii... lead everyday with Missery...

*Not Talking abt U*

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Miracles nvr happen to Failures Lyk me...

While thinking back, the times in Sec 3 where the friendship of everyone really bonds... I really love Sec 3 although theres 1 vry bad experience for me but the Daring Challenging for me...

I MISS HONGKONG!!!! I WANT TO GO BACK!!!

PICTURE SPEAKS A THOUSAND WORDS>.. SO LET THE PICTURES DO THE WORK!!!


E AWARDS ENTRANCE... 13th March... ( I HATE THIS DAY!!! )


All of u have eaten Fried Rice for $4 at all Stalls... But how abt this $18 Fried Rice?? LOLS


THE CAGE!!! WHERE I INJURED MY WRIST First time playing there.. First Match.


2nd time @ the CAGE... Cool not injured but 6hrs of fun...


Kia n I on Sat 10th of April... We sat on Flyer...


Cool...


Inside the cabin taken by a Father of 2 ( malay )


Taken by my E71 bright...


So quiet cause only 6 ppl on board this cabin.


AT the Highest Peak of FLyer


11th April.. 2nd day of work.. Simei CC


Huge Prince n Ladders... LOLS


My Game Booth ... Toss Coins... Easter Fun FAir


Kia's Booth ... Match the colours...


WAo... nice effects under the lights in Flyer Cabin.. Haha

Alrights Nth much already... Sch is starting soon. Waiting for it to start then... Haha. Well still hoping for that miracle to happen ... Hope it will. Thx those who concerned abt my feelings recently. xD.

Great Thanks to :

AnQi ( 11Yrs Friend Since XingHua Pri ) XHPS to NCPS
Jovial Mei
Desmond
Ian
Kia
JonKhoo
Kendrick
WuJing
Jaclyn ( WHITE )


HAhas... Still have the rest. ALrights this week really passed so fast uhh hahas. Well Well Well.
Hope for the better... things will turn out fine...

Bought Hoody From TOPMAN with JonKhoo

Total of $98

OMG!!!

My Black Hoody Cost $59
&
JonKhoo Gray Hoody cost $39

Lols... So happy with my New Hoody.

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Really missed chatting with u.... x=

Happy Birthday Ian Leong Stonecore!!! Hahas...
Been great knowing u frm Kia... Exchange programme.. Hehe.
All the best.


Have been working with Kia Yesterday n Tdy... Yupps Yesterday work @ Singapore Flyer haha. Was kinda tiring but fun... Meet Jonathan Lim there my NCPS friend. He's so good.... He gave Kia and I 4 tickets to sit in the Singapore Flyer but only 2 of us so gave other 2 to YunTing and Her sister but they cant go unfortunately so passed to their couple friend.

My wish onced was to sit on the flyer with the one I loved. But failed once and again... but this time took it as a bday present gift for Kia so yupps we 2 sat on it with another Family of 4 so its 6 ppl in a cabin so quiet and fun. after that home sweet home and sleep.

Tdy was another fun day also... worked @ Simei CC hehe... Tiring too but fun. So after that Iluma lan 1hr with Kia n Jonkhoo... after that went to Jon's hse to play Fm and have Pizza hut for dinner so full hehe.

Tmr gonna be with Jon n Kia suppose ... Firstly Visit Yuan Fei in SGH and then off to get Jon's pay and outing... Hehe...
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Until 1 fine day u never see me smsing u ... Its the day when I am tired of trying to contact u again. Its really tough to get u to reply ... I dont spam u because I knw abt ur Limit to msging, I dont want to spam u just to get u to reply me because I do not want to irritate u.. I sms u alternatively or few days a time... issit too much? If u think it is, den let it be...

Body really aching much ... Darn with anymore pressure to it thats It. Enduring the pain is the word to use... So much things affecting my whole holidays. Sch starting soon... some of my plans are ruined by some minor/major problems.

I started planning my time for all of u during this Holidays during my attachment period. Gt Concerts, Events and also Outing. Some are needed to be planned early cause Tickets might be out like example the Dance Concert @ Victoria and E awards @ The Floating Platform. Glad that the Bros were able to catch up alot during this holidays.

Swimming, Cage ( Soccer ), Prawning and alot more.... Its all so fun outing. With Different ppl also.

Holidays are ending soon yet I do not get the chance to go out with her. So jealous of others who can go out with her. ......... Blah Blah Blah. Whatever...

I love Swimming the most followed by Cage and the worst of all is E awards although I love the concert but during the process of asking ppl to go, Its alot of efforts wasted. I used up all my time planning for it because of Joseph's Influence cause he wanted to go so badly... how can I leave him alone? Thx bros for making it possible to go. Thx Noel for being a Substitute and Buying I left over Ticket frm me...

In every Outing or meet ups, I will always be the one planning Just because I can plan instantly and fast. Effective. If u guys cant see the effort I have placed in all plannings den whats the use?

Ppl TRUST me just because they know i can plan and make it a vry fun and pleasant day. Everyone makes mistakes Y because of a mistake u make it a bigger mistake and nt by approaching the mistake and amend it?

Girls are weird cause Boy and Girl can be vry gd friends and also vry close friends. When a boy ask them out, and they are friend with him, they will not reject when they can. But if they know that the boy lyks them, they will just avoid and treat them lyk Viruses. Y judge a book by its cover? U nvr even read the contents u want to throw the book away.

Once vry good friends and a guy wants to care and concern for the girl more, the girl just ignore. Whats the point? Give him a chance to care for u and concern for u maybe he can be better than someone u think is better. Some ppl are just not for u because they play with ur feelings but not all guys are lyk that.

If u think finding a perfect guy can be much easier I can tell u its different now already.

I dint see a post talking abt me gg out with u or whatever before. A normal friend will be in but a close friend have no place ... how dissapointing can it get. How I wish my heart is made from Diamond which can nvr be broken down into any pieces...

I care for u when u r sick. I concern for u when u r worried about ur exams. I am there for u when u need someone to talk to. What about u? Will u even be there abit for me when I am sick, worried abt my exams ( Failed already and did u care? ), when i need someone a vry close friend who is a girl i can talk to. Where r u? U do not even care... When I injured myself where r u? Do u care?

I really thx all my bros for me... after 2 yrs, still there to help me out when my wrist is injured the other time when attachment period... i cant eat anything only bread ... how bad can it be? Ian, Desmond, jonKhoo and Kia... thx for the help and concer... Really appreciated...

U guys Get what I mean? Its life ... No one is perfect.

Well Its so Tiring for tdy... Woke up kinda late so sorry lols.. So meet JonKhoo n off to Kallang The Cage for the 6hrs Marathon of soccer.. Lols. Yupps Being Praised by most ppl for being such a gd keeper.. Haha. Thx all.

Well Gt kinda lots of Incident but its alright though. Have real fun really... Also Gt girls play hahas..

After that walked to Mrt with Zul, JunYi and Neelam.. Haha.. Was damn funny while chatting ... Nice... headed to BBQ of class 0914 haha. Damn fun and food was ok. Drank Vodka 40% with them cool... Nice... After that 11pm home sweet home walking to bus interchange with Wen Yang .... xD...

Doing nth now... was wondering Coincidence.... and Fated to meet... but wondering if fated to be tgt... Was shocked too...

Alrights For Tdy....

Happy Birthday ONG KIA HAW. My CDAC buddy .. haha.
Knw him for 3yrs already? Hmm maybe more than that haha.
All the best dude...

Went over to desmond's hse as usual tgt with Kia and Ian to have breakfast... Yupps Nice Bee Hoon. After that slacked at his hse for few hours and off to cycle to ECp vry fun haha.. soon its late afternoon ard 4pm plus and Jonkhoo is on the way so yupps we cycled back and went off to take bus 26 and off to ToaPayo...

Walked to DBS and withdraw money as not enough cash to pay for steamboat ltr on. While walking to bus interchange and wait for the shuttle bus, Shocked to see Sherwin walked pass ... Dint really notice her until i saw someone waving to me right infront of me... lols. Such a Coincidence xD.

After that reached the Chong Pang Steamboat and the Aunty so Happy to see us hahas... cause i always go there. We ate quite alot there haha... have fun chat and jokes... after that we requested for the radio station for the whole area to be changed to Muttons Till Midnite... 98.7Fm... Haha. Nice songs.. well after that sang Happy Birthday song to Kia and also the Aunty which is also the Lady Boss sang to him too... Upon leaving the area the Aunty treated us to Ice Cream... Thx ... Haha..

Headed to Jon's hse to play FM 2010. After that Home sweet home... Tmr Soccer... Wahahhahahaa I am gg be Casillas for tmr. 6hrs marathon... wooooo

Holidays are ending soon... My holidays to me arent even holidays. I passed everyday with Nitemares and also suffering...

What has gone wrong with you?

U said I dint appreciate what U have done.. cause u tried but I dint know. Ok I know I was in the wrong and I already apologised. Did u forgive me?

U lied to me... I forgive u like I forgive my Bros... thats what friends are for.
U fall sick and I concern for u u dint bother replying. I listened to all ...
I take it that ur phone's Flat but when power's back u will reply...
I take it as u too busy to reply...
All kinds of reasons The whole world can say I take it...

But these would not have happened... It will nvr happen until March 13th... E awards... The incident that Happened. Before that we can chat like normal. Since it already sounds like we dint know each other, then let it be... whatever u say I listen...

"Joseph" thanks for the idea of gg to E awards... I regretted listening to it and planning it all ... What ever i wrote in the previous post on the letter was I think its nth...

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Alrights back to normal post but may link with whats happening now. Tdy reach Desmond hse ard 8.20am... and have breakfast outside his hse de coffee shop... so after that went down to orchard for desmond to get dental appointment. After that to Balestier club to get mum's phone back ... After that headed to Singapore Post to have lunch and off to his hse and play all the way... nite went over to Leisure park and back again... after that Home sweet home....

alrights I am changing my service provider soon... this mth. I am changing my no. too... Most probably... New number will be given to close friends only. Its a great chance to avoid everything now. nxt on is moving hse... or migrating ... sounds expensive but still gg to do so... Alrights that all...

Is This BackFire?

So dissapointed...

Ppl care u heck care...

Well If this is what u want ...

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Well tdy nth much woke up and used internet. After that meet Desmond @ Kovan ard 1.30pm and Off we go for Tuning of GTR-35 Hahas, went for Lunch after that with Ian and off to my hse for me to change... cause tdy Hean Jin, gibson and few of us meeting up for BBQ at Hean Jin's hse hahas. Well Its fun indeed. watched Kungfu Panda hahas...
After everything, headed to Changi Airport and have tea with Ian. Walked ard awhile and home sweet home.

While on the way home, a aunty sitting beside me doze off and keep hitting me with her head swinging here and there... Haha... irritating so get down 2 stops before my stop and walked home frm the park opposite YYSS.. hahas.

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This is a random post and its very memorable for me... xD. Was looking at past items and letters frm all friends... and found it.

2 Years ago... In a Blue Letter... Was a belated Birthday card. Written in the front " Andy ".

Inside was written lyk this.

" Hey, Brownie 好吃吗 ? Sorry for the belated birthday present. I know your aim for O lvl and you want to beat me you work hard because i am not going to let u win so easily. but if u need help just call me, I will help u. Anyway want to thank you for helping me in everyway. I am glad to have u as a friend. Dont know next year, we are going to same poly, If we aren't, I really wish we will keep in touch, remember change handphone number must inform me. Let work harder for 'O' levels. Jia Yous


By... Someone.


I haven reply this since I have the letter but here is my answer...


Thanks for the brownies... very unexpected that u will give me a belated gift which is the brownies u made... Its really nice. Till now I still remember the taste... well was wondering if I have the Honour to have the brownies or sth else or not.



Well its not early already... Have to meet Desmond for Breakfast @ 8am KNs.. so early lols.. Well off to sleep xD.... Have to wake up @ 6.30am and off @ 7am ... Yawns....

Swimming on Thurs Was great really.

But alot of things happened... First is Jonathan Lost his Locker Key and we have to look for it... while looking for it, I injured my hand... then after that when it was found, we lost 2 of our floats... kns... den found already don knw lost what again... Lol LOST AND FOUND day!!!

After that went to Dhouby for Lan session 4hrs... actually 1st hr is $2 den sub hr is $1 .. we played for 2hrs le den tell us its Gd Friday Eve the computer cannot change back... knn so its lyk $8 total knn... I broke on that day cause lend kia also..

After that dinner @ my hse there where my mum pay.. hehe.

Headed to Jon Khoo's Hse and Played Fm frm 10pm till 2.30am lols... Siao. Den home...



Friday was another day off piss off Haha... Woke up and Jon come my hse to FM again because of our newly created team. after that went for lunch and off to 3hrs Lan gaming ... hais. Headed off to des hse and Jon ps me lie to me ... knn. Desmond's Mum ask the maid cook alot for us in de end only JunWei and I go the rest nvr go... Waste food. After that Played Fm in his hse and home sweet home....

Have not been sleeping well and not been in gd mood for 1wk and 4days already. Do not feel vry good too... have some guilty and regrets thoughts all these while. Its so difficult to understand girls.

Hais... Tdy woke up and do nth hahas. Planned to sleep till 10am tdy. Yesterday was different hahas. 8am run to des hse hahas... Well so after that went downstairs for lunch and off to Vivo to meet desmond. Went over to HP to collect Lappy. After that to Desmond's hse and play .. Haha.. Till now I am home.

PLanning for tmr Swimming with Kelvin, Kia, Ian, JonathanKhoo, Guoyuan and DEsmond. Hahas... Gonna be fun.. I hope.

Well... I really do not wish to see myself in this state... But I have to because I have to really settle this first. Just hope that when she sees this, she can talk to me again.